Since rolling out online groups, podcasts, and considering other ways to help men here at home and around the world I asked the very well qualified wife of one of our leaders if she could help us do what we are doing better. She starting by asking me questions to get a deeper feel for what we did. One question she asked in an email about how do you want men in the room to feel? Great question, never been asked that before. As I started answering it…….I just kept on typing until I felt good inside. I liked what came out so much I wanted to share it with you all. Here it is:
Emotions that would describe how I would want men to feel in the room on Monday nights:
I would want them to get the warm sweats of conviction, to burn deep inside with passion for holiness, aching, hungry, desperate “i need you really bad” connection with God, I want them to tremble, I want them to be reverently frozen in the presence of God because it’s a holy moment, I want them to be shocked, to stand up and cheer because that is the first time they have ever heard someone with the courage to say it, I want them to laugh till it hurts….that kind of “stomach ache” laugh that connects with their past stupidity so they are freed from the shame because they realize they are not alone. I would want what is happening in them to go so deep internally that they have to take an extended trip to the toilet, I want them to feel closer to the man beside them than they have ever felt to anyone ever before in their life. I want them to feel giddy, to feel like they have finally found what they have been looking for. I want them to feel known, feel loved, feel believed in, I want them to have hope, comfort, have confidence, to feel clean. I want men to feel like they just had a spa day with the best masseuse in the country. I want them quiver on the inside, to regularly have that exhilarated feeling like you get after you shoot a buck, or catch a monster fish. I want them to feel as special as they really are and know that God is completely for them and with them in every way. I want them to be at peace, I want them angry at unrighteousness, religion, and falsehood. I want them to weep, and heal as they do. To cry happy tears as they realize God is exactly who he is to them as he is in scripture. I want them to feel forgiven, walk light, laugh freely, cry openly. I want them to be fearless and ready to die for their convictions. I want them to be in awe and wonder of what Jesus did for them on the cross and for what he is still doing inside them. I want them to feel broken inside, yet to feel masculine strength and confident humility. Bold as a lion, and fully empowered.
I hope that every man in the room gets to this place and stays there. . That your feelings keep pace with your good choices, and that you have frequent “in the moment happiness” so that there is no place you would rather be and nothing that you would rather being doing than what you are doing right now.